Sneak Peek at My Dream

OK now you’ve heard all about my dream come true, and you’ve seen the official trailer for it. So how about I give you a little taste of what the actual dream will look like in reality?

Watch this sneak peek at one of Death Grip‘s most heart-pounding scenes!

Pretty gripping huh?

Well if you liked that, then you should definitely go check out the Death Grip movie website for more awesome clips and teasers. And get excited for the full feature film coming out very soon!

PS: Here’s the official trailer one more time, just in case you haven’t had a chance to watch it yet:

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My Dream’s Official Trailer – Watch Now!

By now, you all surely know about the martial arts action-thriller I’m producing, Death Grip. (And I don’t care if your name isn’t Shirley!)

So you’ll forgive me for sharing another update about this very exciting film, because it’s possibly the most exciting news yet –

We’ve just released the Official Death Grip Trailer!

…and boy does it pack a punch! If you liked the old trailer, just wait till you see this one – it totally kicks the old one’s ass. But be forewarned: this new trailer is exponentially more action-packed & awesome, and it might just blow your mind!

We are so damn proud of this trailer (which Eric Jacobus and I cut together in one day I might add), so we’re going for a really lofty view count on this one!

Please watch it, “like” it, comment on it…

and then SHARE IT – put it on your Facebook, Tweet it, Blog it (or just re-blog this post), email it, write it on a post-it and stick it to someone, anything!

And as always, a huge thanks to everyone who made this a reality. I’m living my dream people, and this trailer is solid proof!

Anniversary of a Dream

I know I keep coming back to this same theme and repeating the same story, but I really am still amazed how far my life has come in only the last year. Somehow, I managed to go from living a nightmare to living my dream. And it only took a year… well a year + 4 years.

For 4 years, I puttered around in a cloud of corporate processes and org restructures and watercooler talk, changing roles and teams and even departments trying to find the kind of success other people had told me I should want. And after those 4 years, my health and spirits were deteriorating. I’d developed anxiety disorder and started having panic attacks in the office. My life became a shadowy nightmare of itself, sharply contrasted with the bright and colorful world of the Google office.

Even when facing a destructive situation, it sometimes takes hitting rock bottom to actually do something about it. My boss and mentor finally sat me down and insisted I take medical leave, even though she knew that once I got my head back on straight, it might result in my decision to leave the company altogether. I was overwhelmed by this generous offer, and I took my leave very seriously. So that after 3 months of heavy self reflecting and soul searching, I decided on my next course of action.

And then on March 18, 2011, exactly one year ago today, I bit farewell to Google and the corporate world for good and embarked on a brand new occupational adventure that has lead me to where I am today.

Even today, it still feels like a wonderful dream come true.

My Google Alumni Voice

Recently an old Google colleague reached out to me with an exciting proposition. The Google Alumni online network, of which I am now a member, has launched a new publication called the Alumni Voice and she asked if I would write an article for it to share my post-Google story.

Naturally, I jumped at the chance and found myself once again writing out the story of how I came to leave Google and find the incredible new path I am now fortunate to be on.

Now I’m so proud to see it live and published, that I wanted to share it with everyone. Unfortunately, only Google Alumni members have access to the Alumni Voice. So I asked for (and was granted) permission to share the content of that article here with you all as well.

Enjoy!
Rebecca


Alumni Voice: Rebecca Ahn’s 2nd act as a stunt actor

Mar 09, 2012

Alumni Voice: Rebecca Ahn cannot sit still. Her life is as action-packed as the movies she creates as a film producer and stunt actor. When she’s not making films with Action Pact Entertainment & The Stunt People, including the current Death Grip, she is writing poetry and blogging about how to achieve greater balance with the chaos that inevitably comes with creativity. Rebecca worked as an Admin and AdWords Account Optimizer while at Google for 4 years.  RebeccaAhn.com

NOTE: We have launched another outlet for alumni expression called “Alumni Voices,” an area of the Network dedicated to your musings. We want alumni to express themselves and connect with one another through alumni-written articles about their passions, interests, hobbies and advice.

Some people just aren’t meant to find fulfillment in the corporate world. I know Google can be an incredibly encouraging and satisfying work environment. It just wasn’t for me. And after 4 years of changing roles, and teams, and even departments, trying to achieve the success others told me I should want, I found myself wondering, “am I happy?”

So I began my search for a new career. I created lists upon pages with every insight I could muster into who I am and what I really want, finally culminating in what I called my Occupational Trix. I listed my 10 “must have” work attributes along the top row of a new Google spreadsheet and over 40 possible jobs (regardless of location or skill) down the first column. I then checked the attributes that each job fulfilled and deleted every job that didn’t meet ALL 10 of them, until I had my Top 5 careers. But rather than tell you what they were, I’ll tell you what they weren’t.

They weren’t at Google.

So with my manager’s genuine understanding and support, I bid Google farewell and embarked on a brand new occupational adventure.

What happened next was nothing short of magical. One of my Top 5 careers was Film Stuntwork – and while this seemed the most far-fetched, it also resonated the most strongly with me. So you can imagine my excitement when a good friend mentioned she knew someone with a Bay Area stunt crew. I don’t know how to explain it, but somehow something in me knew this was it – this was the one and only path for me.

What followed was a blur of fortune and chance. I met Eric Jacobus, founder and manager of The Stunt People, and began practicing with them. He showed me his latest screenplay that he was preparing to direct, and suddenly I was being offered the female lead part. Then when Eric needed more help producing the film, and learned of my strong theatre and event production background (pre-Google), he asked me to come on board as the film’s producer!

Over the next 10 months, I experienced immeasurable happiness and fulfillment performing in and producing the action-thriller Death Grip, simultaneously developing a deep relationship with Eric, my producing partner, co-star, and eventually also boyfriend.

Even today, as Eric and I build our new production company and prepare to make our next several films together, it all still feels so surreal. In a year’s time, I went from feeling empty and lost to feeling like my life’s dream is coming true. It wasn’t easy. I didn’t get here without a great deal of struggle and self-questioning, or without the courage to leave behind a world of comfort and security, but you’ll never hear me say it wasn’t all completely worth it.

That’s because what’s even greater than knowing the career I want, is knowing who I am and what success means to me. Some people just aren’t meant to find fulfillment in the corporate world – they’re meant to go out into the great unknown and build it themselves instead.

The Power of Film

Whenever I’m having a really bad day, when something sends me into a tailspin, the one thing I’ve ever found that can always pull me out of it is finding another story (other than my own) to watch on screen. Throughout my entire life, I’ve found regular escape in movies and shows that help me see something beyond my world, beyond my misery, and give me the strength to face my own.
In an interview with Charlie Rose, Angelina Jolie once said that “Film can… send strong messages.” Or as Charlie Rose said, “… uniquely be able to tell their own stories.”

And now as fortune and fate would have it, I’ve found an occupation that lets me send my own messages and tell my own stories, and in turn create and produce for other people that which has so often rescued me. It’s a greater honor than I could have ever asked for, and has brought me a greater sense of purpose and passion in life.

This film, Death Grip, is so much of that rolled into one project – my first bold step into this new arena of fulfillment and validation that couldn’t possibly have come from anywhere else. This is my dream, what for so long has given me dreams and pulled me out of nightmares – and it’s coming true!

I can understand if you are skeptical of my enthusiasm, or think perhaps I’m celebrating a little too early. Sure the film hasn’t been finished yet, and we still have a long road of post-production and distribution ahead of us. But what’s important is knowing that I’m on my way there, and knowing what experience I’ve already been fortunate to have. I’d still feel like the luckiest girl in the world, and I’d still feel like I’m living my dream, even if this film never makes it to market – because I know it’s not going to end there. I’ve only just begun this journey, and I intend to continue embracing it and keep making movies until I physically can’t anymore.

I hope you can relate to what I’m saying, even a little bit, or at least believe in what I’m doing. Because that says something about what all of us (you included) are capable of doing. If I can live my dream, and get to give back what has given me so much, then you certainly can too. And I do hope you are as fortunate to find the path that truly fulfills you and makes you feel excited to go to work every day.

Sound too good to be true?

Well guess what? It isn’t! Or at least it wasn’t for me.

No, for me, it was the power of film that fulfilled my dream, and helped me realize the power in me.

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